A Plan.

I have no plan.

For the past 26 years, I have had some sort of short or long term plan about my education/career/relationship/life path, and right now? I have no plan. Everything in my life is spinning wildly out of control, and I have no say in where it all lands. Though I have gotten most of the things that I have set out to acquire, I still feel that they are all on the verge of running away and leaving me behind, with nothing but the learned fallback plan of running away and starting over from scratch. I'm not used to having a healthy relationship, a consistant acting career, and a stable mental state. Somethings gonna give. The symptoms are all there, I can feel something fighting at the bit, and to be honest, I'm really really good at surviving when things go wrong. In fact I think I'm more adaptable to it then when things go right. Pathetic. So I need a new plan. And the discipline to see it through.

Go.

It's back...

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Get ready.

It's coming... The return of Lacey's blog.

Get ready.

I hate working.

I don't like working.

I really don't. 

Going the same place every day, doing the same mindless, easy job. I hate it.

And I take any excuse not to do it. I am hopelessly lazy. All I want to do is write, or audition, or just read scripts, and research how I can possibly make a "living" doing the things I love. And even though I so clearly need to work to make money to pay rent, bills, food, booze, it really does not take much effort to justify giving away my shifts and spending the day pretending that there is someone else who it worrying about where the money is going to come from. I am the worst adult ever. It's truly pathetic. Yet though I know this, I still make no visible effort to change it.

I desperately need a new headshot. Enough with the junk food. Crash diet time........