For the past 26 years, I have had some sort of short or long term plan about my education/career/relationship/life path, and right now? I have no plan. Everything in my life is spinning wildly out of control, and I have no say in where it all lands. Though I have gotten most of the things that I have set out to acquire, I still feel that they are all on the verge of running away and leaving me behind, with nothing but the learned fallback plan of running away and starting over from scratch. I'm not used to having a healthy relationship, a consistant acting career, and a stable mental state. Somethings gonna give. The symptoms are all there, I can feel something fighting at the bit, and to be honest, I'm really really good at surviving when things go wrong. In fact I think I'm more adaptable to it then when things go right. Pathetic. So I need a new plan. And the discipline to see it through.
Go.
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